Sometimes,

i really appreciate the anonymity of Tumblr. Not that telling my personal life to strangers is much better than venting to those who know you but I feel like there is less retriction and stigma in posting a thought here. I enjoy the fact I am just a random person, with certain feelings that someone in the blogosphere might somehow relate too. 

I enjoy this. Currently i’ve kept more to myself and taken the advice of a counselor and just write. This being my beginning. I am trying to center myself and search for a less… stressful enviornment. and honestly i have it lol. it’s like when i don’t constantly seek out others only 2 people talk to me. that’s all i really need haha. light, effortless people who enjoy my company and I enjoy their’s.

I know I messed up no matter who hurt me first, but I just want to be able breathe again. I want the past to stay dead… and me along with it. I am baggage. And I will just keep going day by day, until i find my purpose while never forgetting my long term goals. I will leave this place, one day I will find someboday, and one day I will have friends I’ve never had before. Until then, I work.